Writing and illustration by Nazifatur Rahmi
What would you do now?
When everything seems like crumbling down
When nothing means everything
When living seems like the only thing you can’t decide
Have you ever thought about it?
How it could be
How should it be?
What would it be?
Life teaching us something
That is not so unpredictable, isn’t?
Everything that happened has it’s own reason
Maybe one or two
Maybe the other way around
How we are still laughing over the shit that hurt us
Thinking that one-day we could turn it back around
Is that how we actually want it to end?
Does it even matter now when it was all scattered in pieces
Either way we are fucked
Silence I discover, actually something you could hear
What makes it worth fighting for?
When it all becomes memories from the past
Can’t we stop and see a little better?
Is there really an answer out there?
And we keep asking the same thing over and over again
No, you never meant to hurt
Just sometimes when we live on the edge
We just hurt others
We have got to live anyway
No matter how cruel that might seems
We just end up doing the things that need to be done
Once again, life fucked us up
What was it really?
Words have failed to explain things
Feelings are too much to express
Exploding into tiny pieces of dust
Vanish along the blow of the wind
Remain forever as our main reason to exist
Come back vividly in the tip of our eyes
They probably know nothing of your pain
None of us actually understand perfectly
Not even yourself understand the sorrow within your heart
You are just a great pretender
Smiling all along the road of faith as nothing else matters
While holding tears from falling across your cheeks
Is that it?
Whatever it might be
Hold your head high
For the thing that makes you worthy is the fact that you are
For the reason you live is that you are alive
For the only reasonable thing is your own existence
Life might fuck you over and over again
Chin up and fuck it back![share]